RIP !!!

Year is ending with the sad news. Day started with a news of losing a close relative.  An intelligent, talented person but crooked, broken in many ways with ego, attitude, inferiority complex and successfully failed in leading a better loving life. I was little when he stepped into our family. I admired the little frog and intestine diagrams he drew for me for my science class. I still remember his obsession about few little things (like listening to the same old telugu song repeatedly many times without getting bored, eating the same thing without changing the recipe for several months or years). I do remember his narrow mind and crooked mentality which broke everyone many times. I remember how many times our family got hurt, disturbed and spent more time for them. To me, this couple is the best example who got everything, but ruined their life successfully with Inferiority complex, ego, unrealistic expectations and lack of trust. He was my measuring scale for all my alliances what not to do. To me, he suffered all his life (atleast since 30 years that I know him) and I dont see him happy at any moment. I never saw him living peaceful life at all. I don't know. I may be wrong. He must be having his own perceptions and his own analysis for his deeds. However he is no more. I only knew how negativity, ego, and inferiority complex ruined one life time. One Lifetime …. Cannot be returned any more. Cannot be regained at any time at any given moment. Any change in his perceptions could’ve turned the whole family in a beautiful song, could’ve turned the family into most beautiful way. No matter what ever he was, I loved him. I deeply saddened of hearing the news. I hope he get peace and happiness in heaven. I truly pray for him and his peace in heaven.  May his soul rest in peace and in heaven. 

The Snowman- Who stole my heart

Little things matter. I got a Christmas gift, a little cute snowman in snow globe. He is so cute, little, a carrot nose, with blue scarf and cap, so cute, in a glassy globe, glows like twinkling star in multi colors. I simply loved him. I really became a little kid, kept the snowman in my bedroom. I open my eyes little bit, look at the snowman in middle of my deep sleep, smile cheerfully and sleep happily like a baby. This is the most wonderful gift I received this year. I simply fell in love with this snowman. Thank you so much for the one who gave me such a cute beautiful gift. Sometimes it’s little things that matters most. And the little things that bonds more. Hmmm..Its almost mid night… Good Night Snowman !!!

Year End - 2016

12/30/16

Year end…Hectic work, unrealistic schedules, unrealistic expectations, I am kinda tired of everything. Year End…means New year fun… people are rushing for parties, people are preparing for parties. I simply smile people who plan their weekend or holidays with crazy busy schedule. I know, I was like that few years ago. I am missing my family. I wish to be with them for next holidays. I don’t want to go to any friends place. I just want to be alone and be silent. I am enjoying my silent evening with myself in my beautiful, little house. Hall is glowing with Christmas tree, little Christmas lights. Little gifts, little poinsettia plants are glowing in the Christmas tree lights. I had the most wonderful Christmas after many years. Happiness in my family, Friends visiting, kids, affection, love, tons of laughs, little gifts, good food…house is so filled with peace, heart is so filled with tranquility. It looks like Santa gave me a gift of affection, love and peace for the pain and suffering I had. It looks like God listened to my prayers and blessed with wonderful peace and love. Everything looks more softer, more lovelier and more brighter to me. I am able to regain myself from the intense hurt caused by immaturity. I know, I lost my energy in controlling the negativity, but I am glad, I am strong. I am strong enough to regain myself and my positive attitude. After a long time, my heart, my soul, my body totally experiencing the silence and peace. The pain, the suffering, the tears, the hurt, everything washing away from heart. I am enjoying every moment with myself, I am making peace and love with in myself.  The bond I’m making with myself, my self-love without any selfishness making me more energetic, more confident. I am analyzing myself, I am correcting myself, I am restoring myself, reconnecting with in my soul, empowering myself. I simply saying to myself repeatedly "I love myself".   If Christmas is all about hope, peace and love… I gained it successfully in this Christmas. I just wanted to thank God for his support in my tough times and his help in regaining myself. I also wanted to thank my family and friends and my enemies who helped me to be as me. I decided to focus on my work, and on my hobbies more. I also decided to combine my personal and cooking blog into one and do more blogging. More blogging means…more thoughts and more pictures and more recipes. Happy Blogger in Happy New Year !!!